I'M SO DAMN PISSED!!!!!

KEVAN!! PLZ FARK OFF MY LIFE!!!! P-L-E-A-S-E!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DID NOT INTRUDE UR LIFE, SO DON'T YOU!!! AND FOR UR INFORMATION, U R OUT OF MY HEAD VERY LONG AGO!!!

PREVIUOSLY, I DID NOT DELETE UR PHOTO BECAUSE I GOT BETTER THINGS TO DO THAN TO WASTE MY TIME!!! LOOKS LIKE EVERYONE IS GETTING ME WRONG!! AND THAT U R SO PERASAN!!! I FINALLY DELETED ALL UR PHOTO!!!! NO LONGER POLLUTING MY PROFILE!!! SO NOW JUZ FARK OFF MY LIFE!!!! I DOWANNA HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH FUCKERS!!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!! I'M DAMN PISSED!!!

FUTHERMORE, WHY DO U WANNA K SO MUCH BOUT WATS IN MY PROFILE!!! MY PROFILE IS MINE!!! IF U DUN LIKE TO SEE, JUST GET THE HELL OFF AND DELETE ME!! NO NEED TO WRITE MY NAME ALWAYS!!! DAMN ANNOYING!!! GET IT?!??!?!?!

aFtEr ThE pOsT... pHeWwW... ShUaNg!!!!!!! oOoLaLa....

U'rE nOt ThE OnLy GuY!!!!!!!!!

STEFFIE HEARTS EUU ALL!!!!

aLL oF yOu RiLi BriGhTeNs uP My DaY!!!  YeA.. i MeAn ALL!!!! nO oNe iS LeFt OuT!!!

hOpE tHaT tHe FriEnDsHiP wiThiN uS LaSt TiLL tHe EnD!!!! ^^

mAyB i SeEm To Be CooL aT tiMeS... i'M nOt!!!   i'M jUz bEiNg A LiStEnEr RaThEr ThAn A TaLkEr...

iF eUu KnOw Mii WeLL, i CaN jOkE LiKe No OnE ELsE's BuSiNeSs... bUt Of CoZ, aT tHe CoRrEcT tiMe...

aNd i MiGhT nOt GeT tO jOiN eUu aLL oN oUtiNgS... DoEsN't MeAn i'M bEiNg CooL.. jUsT tHaT i HaVeN RiLi GeT mY tOtAL fReEdOm To Do WaT i WaN...

i MiGhT nOt GeT cLoSe WiTh EuU, bUt iT dOeSn'T mEaN tHaT i DuN LiKe EuU...

i MiGhT b RuDe aT TiMeS, TrUsT Mii!!! i'M jUz pLaYiNg A FooL....

i MiGhT b QuiEt, i'M jUz WaiTiNg FoR EuU tO tALk To Mii...

tO wHoM ThAt i iNdiReCtLy HuRt.. i'M sOwWiEsSsS....

aLL mUa fReNs... sTaY hApPy aLwAyS.. i'LL aLwAyS b ThErE... FiNd Mii iF eUu NeEd Mii...

OnCe A FrEn, aLwAyS A FrEn...  StEfFiE wiLL nEvEr FoRgEt HeR fReNs!!!! MeMoRiEs~~~~

My CoLLeGe LiFe So FaR...

ThE siAo GaNg aKa cHiLdiSh cLuB.... LoVe EuU aLL!!!

tHiS iS wAt We Do WhEn ThErE iS No PaRkiNg!!! 6 cArS ToGeDa... COOL!!!!!

aT piZZa~~~~~

aT tGi FriDaYsS

cHiLdiSh cLuB rAwXxX  ~~~  http://childishclub-in-action.blogspot.com/

yO mY wAcKy FrEnZzZzZ,  wAcK-oN!!!!!!

SiNcErE fRoM hEaRt...

 I'm HuMaN aS WeLL!!

It HaS aLrEaDy BeEn 2 MoNtHs nOw,

ExAcTLy 52 dAyS, iN dEtAiL,

aNd YeT, i DuNnO hOw,

i'M sTiLL LoViNg AnD MiSsiNg HiM RiGhT nOw!!

iT RiLi SoUnDs LaMe N sTuPiD...

BuT i RiLi DuNnO y,

ThAt i CaN LoVe HiM RiGhT TiLL nOw,

i'Ve tRy HaTiNg HiM,

BuT i JuZ cOuLdN't FiNd A ReAsOn.

mAyBe i'Ve RiLi GoNe iNsAnE,

ThAt AfTeR sO LoNg, 

My FeELiNgS sTiLL sTaYs tHe SaMe!!

YeS, i'M sTuPiD!!!

NeVeR wiLL i DeNy iT!!

bUt iF iT wErEn'T oUt Of LoVe,

i WoULdn'T hAvE dOnE iT.

FoR LoVe iS DeFiNiTeLy PrOvEn BLiNd!!

MaNy PeOpLe WoNdEr WhY,

i, MySeLf DiD nOt KnOw ToO..

"iS He So WoRtH??"

"WhAt DoEs He HaS tHaT aTtRaCtS u So MuCh??"

To aLL tHoSe QuEsTiOnS,

i RiLi DuNnO tHe AnSwEr...

GuEsS pPL's RiGhT..

LoViNg SoMeOnE dOn'T nEeD a rEaSoN.

iF OnLy i'M nOt ToUgH eNuF,

i WoULd HaVe Be DeAd By NoW.

gOiNg ThRoUgH tHe HuRt AnD sUfFeRiNg,

iTs RiLi NoThiNg ThAt i CaN eVeR iMaGiNe..

iF i WeRe To ChOoSe,

i RaThEr HaVe No HeArT, nO fEeLiNgS...

BeCaUsE i'M JuZ aCtiNg To Be HaPpY,

JoKiNg AnD mAkiNg PpL LaUgH,

bUt DeEp iNsiDe i'M HuRt aNd bLeEdiNg.

i JuZ DiDn'T sHoW iT oUt,

iF OnLy U cAn FeEL tHe PaiN...

tHeRe'S RiLi No WoRdS CaN EvEr ExPLaiN..

i'M RiLi LoSt AnD cOnFuSe,

Of WaT i ShOuLd AcTuALLy Do.

i'M aLsO cOnFuSeD tHaT,

HaS hE LoVeD mE b4??!?

bUt AfTeR aLL tHaT i CaN tHiNk Of,

He WaSn'T tHaT bAd aFtEr aLL..

i KnOw ThAt He DuN LoVe Me AnYmOrE,

bUt WhY dOeS i LoVe HiM mOrE??!?

i KnOw i ShOuLd JuZ LeT gO.

bUt iTs nOt As EaSy As iT sEeM..

iF OnLy iT wAs, i CoULd HaVe LeT gO bY nOw.

He'S tHe OnE wHo HeLp Me FiNd BaCk MySeLf,

He'S tHe OnE wHo HeLp Me FiNd BaCk My SeLf-CoNfidEnCe, 

He'S tHe OnE wHo GaVe Me BaCk HoPe AnD fEeL tHaT LoVe StiLL eXiStEd,

He'S tHe OnE wHo MaKe Me FeEL tHaT tHeRe'S sOmEoNe WhO sTiLL cArEsS,

He'S tHe OnE wHo WaS wiTh Me GoiNg ThRoUgH eVeRyTHiNg,

AnD sUpPoRtiNg Me ThRoUgH sTuDiEs.

So HoW cAn i StAnD uP AgAiN sO fAsT??

fOr He, 

iNdiReCtLy tOoK oFF eVeRyThiNg WiTh HiM,

LeAviNg Me HoPeLeSs aGaiN!!!

nOw My HeArT iS RiLi HuRt,

FoR iT hAs TrAnSfOrM fRoM a CoMpLeTe hEaRt To BrOkEn PiEcEs,

aNd NoW,

tHe PiEcEs HaS eVeN tUrN iNtO dUsT!!!!

i GuEsS mY fReNs aRe aLrEaDy TiReD,

Of HeAriNg Me SaY "DAMN MISS HIM!!!" n "DAMN LOVE HIM!!!"

SoRrY tHaT i HaVe To...

BeCaUsE sOmEtiMeS i JuZ cAn'T sTaNd iT tOo..

AnD mAkiNg ThEm SpEeChLeSs aLL tHe TiMe.

i KnOw ThAt U aLL wAnTeD Me To Be GoOd.

BuT i'M aLsO jUz A HuMaN WiTh HeArT n FeeLiNgS...

gUeSs i'M aLL bY mY oWn NoW.

TiMe FoR mE tO LeArN tO bE iNdEpEnDeNt AnD bE oPtiMiStiC,

i NeEd To CoNcEnTrAtE oN mY sTuDiEs aNd AsSiGnMeNtS,

aS ThE sAyiNg "LiFe StiLL nEeDS To MoVe On".

aLL i CaN dO nOw iS JuZ wAiT aNd PrAy,

iF hE's RiLi ThE oNe FoR mE,

sOmEhOw, He'LL cOmE bAcK sOmEdAy.

MaYb OnE dAy, My LoYaLtY wiLL gEt PaiD.

i WuN hAtE yOu ThAt YoU'vE hUrT mE b4,

bUt ThAnKeD yOu FoR tHe MeMoRiEs YoU gAvE,

i WiLL nOt HaTe AnYoNe, As No OnE dEsErVeS tO bE hAtE aT.

iF OnLy i WeRe To HaTe, i WiLL oNLy HaTe MySeLf!!!

fOr BeiNg uSeLeSs N sTuPiD!!!!

AnD dAmN!!!!

i LoVe YoU!!!!!!!!

QuEsTiOnS QuEsTiOnS

GoT aTTaCk By EriShA WiTh 48 QuEsTiOn AnD wAs MaDe To AnSwEr ThEm.. Haha.....

1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
KEVAN!!! WhO eLsE... >.<

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
HmMmMmM... sELdOm Go To GrOcErY sToRe... XD

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
hMmMmM.. i'LL TaLk WhEnEvEr iTs MY TURN!! LoLxX... AnD wiLL LiStEn As WeLL.. XD  DiN RiLi AnSwEr ThE qUeStiOnS... =P

4. Do you take compliments well?
ThiNk So...

5. Do you play Sudoku?
WhEn i'M RiLi DeAd BoReD... aNd DeFiNiTeLy NoT aLoNe...

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness,would you survive?
GuEsS NoT.... =S

7. What song are you listening to?
VeLi PeAcE nOw..   *ThiNkinG*

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
GuEsS nOt...

9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
HmMmM.. BoArD gAmEs... AcTuALLy, AnY gAmEs.. i LuV gAmEs... ^^

10. If a person you really liked was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you?
I dUn ThiNk So... DoWaNnA sPoiL pPL's MaRriEgE... =S

11. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
HmMmMmM.. YeA... BuT nOt ToO cOnTrAsTiNg...

12. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
i GuEsS iS Be PeRsUeD... ^^ 

13. Use three words to describe yourself.
Thin, Stubborn, Dumb?? LOLXX

14. Do any songs make you cry?
YES!!!! iN fAcT... ALOT!!!    >.<

15. Are you continuing your education?
YeApZzZz

16. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
ErRr... hOw WoULd i KnOw.. LoLxX... UnLeSs GoiNg NS.. >.< 

17. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you’d grab?
FiRsTLy, My Hp, ThEn $$$ ( iNcLuDiNg IC ) ThEn My CeRtS... bUt i WoULd LiKe To SaVe ThE FiRe.. BETTER!!!! LoLxX..

18. How often do you read books?
RaReLy... XD

19. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
EqUaL, i GuEsS... 

20. What is your favorite children’s book?
eRrR.. dUnNo WhiCh WaN.. mAyB mY mUm ShOuLd KnOw... XD

21. What color are your eyes?
DaRk BrOwN

22. How tall are you?
160 SoMeThiNg... DiN mEaSuRe FoR sO LoNg Dy...

23. Where is your dream house located?
HmMmMm.. hAvEn ThiNk Of OnE yEt.. As LoNg As iTs pEaCeFuL wiTh FrEsH aiR.. ^^

24. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
OnLy OnCe.. >.<  ** HeY sS, eL... wHeN wAn TaKe LaRr... SaiD sO LoNg Dy... >.< **

25. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
wHeRe???

27. Do you like mustard?
NoT sUrE... XD

28. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
BOTH!!!! LoLxX... Pig...

29. Do you look like your mom or dad?
My MuM???

30. How long does it take you in the shower?
bOuT i5~3o MiNuTeS... hAha

31. Can you do the splits?
WiSh To...

32. What movie do you want to see right now?
CoRrEnTLy.. NoThiNg ThAt i RiLi WaNtEd To...

33. What did you do for New Year’s?
ErRrRrR... 9 MoNtHs aGo.... HmMmmM...

34. Do you own a camera phone?
YeApZzZz... ^^

35. Was your mom a cheerleader?
ErRrRr... DuN THiNk So... WoULb B fUnNy iF sHe WeRe.. XD

37. How many hours of sleep do you get at night?
DePeNdS... MoStLy.. JuZ 6...

38. Do you like care bears?
NoPeZzZz..

39. What do you buy at the movies?
MoStLy PoPcOrN aNd DriNkS...

40. Do you know how to play poker?
tHiNk Not.. HaHa...

41. Do you wear your seatbelt?
HmMm.. aLwAyS... bUt SoMeTiMeS.. i FoRgEt As WeLL.. OoOpPsS

42. What do you wear to sleep?
t ShiRtS n ShOrTs... DePeNdiNg On Da weAtHeR..

43. Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
eRrRr.. SeRiOuSLy.. DuNnO WhErE's My HoMeToWn.. >.<

44. How many meals do you eat a day?
hMmMmM...  3 MaiN oNeS...

45. Do you always read friendster bullettins ?
yEa... nOwAdAyS... ^^

46. Do you like funny or serious people better?
hMmMm... MiX oF bOtH... kNoWs HoW tO bE fUnNy N sEriOuS iN tHe CoRrEcT tiMe, CoRrEcT pLaCe..

47. Ever been to L.A.?
No.. mAyB sOmEdAy.. ^^ 

48. Did you eat a cookie today?
NoPeZzZz.. WoNdEr Y... XD

FiNaLLy!!!!!

EriShA... i DiD aNsWeR kAy... hAha....

ThE vOiCe Of My HeArT....

TrUe VoiCe...

YeA... i KnOw i WaS cHeAtEd... aLL aLoNg i WaS jUz TrYiNg To BLuFF mYsELf.   yEa... i'M jUz CoNvinCiNg MySeLf n PpL aRoUnD mE tHaT hE iS a gOoD gUy...  bUt i KnOw He'S NoT pErFeCtLy A gOoD gUy...    SeRiOuSlY aLL tHe GoOd GuYs r DeAd!!! oKaY mAyB nOt DeAd.. BuT eXtinCtEd!!!!!   iN tHiS wOrLd, OuT oF 1oo gUyS, oNLy 1 iS a rEaL gOoD gUy...   NeVeR wiLL gEt To MeEt... SoBxXx

i hEaRd RuMoUrS... tHaT hE's NoT a gOoD gUy... He StiLL LiKeS HiS eX, miSsEs HeR... bLaH bLaH... n aLsO i HeArD tHaT bEfOrE mE, hE LiKeD a GaL n NoW TrYiNg To TaCkLe HeR.... yEa, i AdMiT iTs HeArTbReAkiNg...  BuT siNcE tHe BeGiNninG, i Dy KnOw iT WILL hApPeN.... WaT cAn i RiLi Do??? RiLi NoThiNg...  i JuZ dUn UnDeRsTaNd Y gUyS cAn Be So ReaL aNd So FaKe At ThE sAmE TiMe???  tHeiR hEaRtS cAn ChAnGe As ThOuGh iTs ChAnGiNg Of SeAsOn... EviTiNg SeEmS tOo FaSt To HaPpEn...

KaYzZz... ThErE sHouLb B a LoT Of QuEsTiOnS... wHy StEpHaNiE sO sTuPiD??? kNoW dY a HoLe, StiLL wAn FaLL iN iT?? cRaZy Ah?? WhY sO sTuBbOrN??

hAiZzZ... iN tHiS wOrLd... HoLeS aRe EvErYwHeRe.... HoW m i GoNnA b AbLe To AvOiD aLL???!?? SeRiOuSLy, i RaThEr FaLL iNtO tHiS HoLe N sTaY tHeRe, HoPiNg ThAt A SiNcErE pRiNcE WiLL cOmE tO mY rEsCuE...  bEtTeR tHaN FaLLiNg iNtO eVeN mOrE HoLeS!!!  N GiViNg ChAnCeS tO gEt HuRt AgAiN....  yEa.. i kNoW iT SoUnDs TeRribLy StUpiD.. bUt i ThiNk ThAt'S RiLi WaT mY hEaRtS wAn..

i RiLi WiSh ThAt i WiLL mEeT mOrE hEaRtBrEaKeRs... MaYb A MiLLiOn... nOpE, i'M nOt iNsAnE... i JuZ wAnNa GeT uSeD tO aLL tHe HeArTbReAkS...  SoMeTiMeS i RiLi WiSh ThAt i CaN FiGhT "tHe AnGeL" iN mY hEaRt N b A pLaYeR.... bUt i JuZ cAn'T!!!  >.<    bCoZ i cLeArLy KnOw ThE fEeLiNg Of  BeiNg ChEaTeD...  i ExPeRiEnCeD, nOt jUz OnCe....

i RiLi FeeL LiKe bLiNdFoLdiNg MySeLf... i RiLi DoEwAnNa fAcE tHe UgLy ReAliTy... T.T   wHeRe R aLL tHe GoOd GuYs??? RiLi aLL dEaD??? i Dy TrY aVoiDiNg ReALiTy... BuT i ReALiSe i CouLd RuN nO wHeRe...  tHe MoRe i TrY tO aVoiD, tHe EaSiEr iT wiLL aPpEaR tO mE.. RiLi dEsTiNeD fOr Me To KnOw UnWaNtEd ThinGs, wHiCh We CaLLeD iT "fAcTs"..

i RiLi AdMiRe ThE LeGeNdArY oF "nGaU LoNg" n "cHiK nUi".   An oLd cHiNeSe LeGeNdArY..   eVeNtHoUgH tHeY oNLy GeT tO mEeT OnCe A yEaR, tHeiR fEeLiNgS nEvEr eVeR FaDeS... wiLL i EvEr FiNd My NgAu LoNg??? SeRiOuSLy WhErE r U?? hAiZzZ...

i JuZ hAvE a SiMpLe WiSh Of BeinG hApPy aLL tHe TiMe..  BuT wHy iT aLwAyZz eNdEd Up, i HaVe To AcT bEiNg "A eVeRyDaY hApPy GaL"??? So TiRiNg...  So HaRd To AcT hApPy...  EvErYtiMe PpL wiLL tHiNk ThAt i'M hApPy, BuT iT's JuZ i NeVeR sHoW oUt My iNnEr SeLf...  KeEpiNg aLL iNsiDe ThE LiTtLe HeArT..  eNd Up Me aLwAyS faLLiNg SiCk... iS eVeRyOnE sUfFeRiNg LiKe Me??? Or Am i JuZ tHe OnLy OnE??? hAiZzZ.... SoMeMoRe EvErYdAy LoCk At HoMe LiKe A PrisOnEr..  WhEn WiLL i RiLi GeT mY fReEdOm??? NeVeR wAnNa iMaGiNe My i8th BdAy... T.T

i JuZ fEeL tHaT tHiS wOrLd iS gEtTiNg MoRe N mOrE cRaZy N uNrEaSoNabLe... dUe To SoMe ReAsOnS, i Do NoT wiSh To EncLoSe.. (JuZ pErSoNaL pOiNt Of ViEw)  BuT i JuZ fEeL tHaT tHe WorLd iS rApidLy ChAnGiNg...   SoMeTiMeS i RiLi WoNdEr... y MuZ GaLs aWaYzZ SuFfEr mOrE tHaN gUyS???   y DoEs GuYs GeT tO oVeRcOmE iT sO eAsiLy??? N y GaLzZ cAnT??  iZiT RiLi TrUe ThAt GaLzZ r BaSiCaLLy MoRe LoYaL tHaN gUyS r???  WhErE r aLL tHe LoYaL gOoD gUyS??? RiLi ExTiNcTeD fRoM tHiS WoRLd???

i jUz WiSh SoMeDaY i wiLL FiNd My TrUe LoVe...   NeVeR PuT hOpE tO FiNd A pErFeCtLy GoOd GuY, bUt At LeAsT a gUy WhO's NoT tHaT BAD!!!  At LeAsT, i FeeL LoVeD n CaReD fOr..  bUt FoR nOw.. GuEsS i'LL hAvE tO wAiT. bLiSs iS WaT nEeDs iNiTiAtivE tO sEeK bY uRseLf aNd tReAsUrE...   LiKe ThEy SaY, nO pAiN, nO gAiN...   bUt iS ThErE rEmEdY foR aLL tHe PaiN??!?

StEfFiE * 9 AuGuSt 2oo7 * ThUrSdAy